I wanna be
the best I can be
so I shouldn't speak
I'm going dumb

I wanna be
the best version of me
so I shouldn't eat
I'm going hungry

and if I wanna be
the very best I can be
then I must be
someone different from me

cause being me means
all of these things
that I cannot believe I am doing

I wanna be
the best I can be
so I shouldn't breathe
I am done

How can I entrust you gentlemen
with my cunt
how can I be what you want