words i say puzzle me...they're crystal clear...

Halmooky: hi hi

x: hi

Halmooky: hows you?

x: not bad, how are you?

Halmooky: i'm fine...

x: you sure about that?

Halmooky: yea

Halmooky: pretty sure.

Halmooky: just, disenchanted with most of what i've been doing lately

x: oh?

Halmooky: yea, i'm sure you know what i mean..

Halmooky: that point at which you just look at everything you do and wonder if you need to be doing something else

and i have to wonder about whether or not psychosis should be explored. i could give it allup and live a smiling life rubbing against a wall like a cat with an itch.

Halmooky: i miss you like a cat with rabies

and i really do, not seeing you makes me cry, and thinking about you makes me cry and when i found a piece of your hair the other day i sat there and twined it around my fingers, admiring it's lustre....i wish i were near you. here i go, chokin up.

x: you wanted to die?

x: uh...why?

Halmooky: it was awful

Halmooky: in pain

Halmooky: and then i just dosed myself into oblivion

Halmooky: and i'd just stay that way

how can i even have these thoughts, and how can i have them now, the narcotics downstairs singing my name like a hymn...

Why are you so far away? I can't imagine its only you.