x: i like him so much though

Halmooky: i know

x: what is a girl to do?

Halmooky: cut her eyes out =)

x: haha cut my own eyes out?

Halmooky: well i'm being silly

Halmooky: but if he got all warty and gross on the outside like he is inside, then you'd prolly like him less

x: hahah

x: no thats the thing

x: its like

x: it has nothing to do with him anymore

x: its how he makes me feel

Halmooky: hm?

Halmooky: well so far all i've seen is him being a jerk and you sleeping with him for it =(

x: he emailed me today

x: just to say hi

x: thats nice

Halmooky: true

Halmooky: butyou fucked him last night

Halmooky: i'm a skeptic,

Halmooky: people are tricky tricky

x: yeah

x: i know

Halmooky: i wish people looked the way they thought...and every time they did something wrong a big welt appeared on their arm

Halmooky: and you'd know...

x: im just all smushface over this one

Halmooky: how horrid they are right off

Halmooky: awww

x: who is to say who deserves more red welts though?

x: when you hurt people maliciously?

x: or by accident?

Halmooky: maliciously, definitely

Halmooky: accident prone people should have a big AP on their foreheads

x: or out of habit...

x: or out of pain

Halmooky: well out of habit is malicious, innit?

Halmooky: and out of pain is spiteful too

x: you dont know though.

x: i mean each person has their circumstances

x: im one of those silly people who believe that people are generally good.

Halmooky: i did

Halmooky: and then someone did something really horrible and malicious to me

Halmooky: and someone else was extremely indifferent to it

Halmooky: and...

Halmooky: i kind of lost my faith in people.

x: what things?

x: i mean

Halmooky: and the more wonderful and nice and cool they seem

x: i shouldnt ask

Halmooky: they're fucking you over more

Halmooky: i'm sure you can tell

x: but i do anway

x: i mean

x: my life has been littered with pain

Halmooky: i was ...

Halmooky: i have no idea what to do about it

Halmooky: i was with two people, nobody told me.

x: i wouldnt know what to do either.

x: yikes.

Halmooky: yea. it was so bitchy of them

Halmooky: i know they both knew

Halmooky: and they both knew we weren't gonna use protection...so couldn't someone just go 'uh....that may not be a good idea?"

Halmooky: but yea...i seem to see a lot of people who just show no regard for anyone

Halmooky: except themselves

x: yeah

x: selfishness

Halmooky: its affected me too.

Halmooky: you know?

Halmooky: after a while

Halmooky: you see it and you go..

Halmooky: "why should i be different?"

x: made you paranoid.

Halmooky: "all thats happening is i'm getting the crap kicked out of me?"

Halmooky: and i've not had contact since...i don't want to do anything until i know for sure...but some people i just want so much...and others are such pigs i'd love to have them catch it too, just "take that pig!" haha!

Halmooky: people are so jerky.

Halmooky: i think it's in our nature

Halmooky: not to be bad, but to be jerks

x: haha agreed.

Halmooky: so i'm not being christian =)

Halmooky: just enjoy yourself.

Halmooky: you could not talk to him except in bed.

Halmooky: that might work

x: hahaha

x: my friends were just like NEXT TIME DONT GIVE IN TO SEX

x: but i want sex

Halmooky: sex is good

x: so what you know?

Halmooky: it's not like you're doing it for him

Halmooky: it's nice for everyone mostly

x: yeah

x: so if i want it

x: i shouldnt hafta hold out

in my most expert opinion (hah) i think you should dump this boy like a sack of potatoes, but i'll bet he's damned cute and very charming when he wants to be, making it difficult to do so. ride it like a wave into shore.