well, it's about t-6 and i'm already a little nervous, butterflies in stomach, rather, big pit of pain and anguish once referred to as stomach, and quite nervous in general. i have a lunch reservation but worry i will be sick and god i hate flying, my mom is pulling the 'if you hate flying you shouldn't go to school in montreal or chicago' but that's pussy, there are trains to montreal and chicago. and they're very nice trains!

i bought presents for everyone, not big ones and i forgot to get the little mini packs of cigarettes with 'smoking kills' on them, but you can't do everything and it gets too expensive, i don't know what i'll do...maybe at the airport...gosh i am tired

i had a really strange dream last night that i am too embarassed to even relay onto this anonymous board, because someone i know might read it and look at me funny afterwards. the exciting part is that i actually know what it means! the main object in the dreams was a pair of earrings-- something that comes two of a kind in a pair. the dream basically wass my subconscious telling me that i am close to what i desire in a mate, but not there yet, and i desire the duality of his being both pleasing to me and acceptable and pleasing to the people around me. talk about a heavy burden to shoulder. was a weird, but kind of nice dream.

i am so excited to see everyone. i will call gill from the airport. gilly, i'm picking you up at 11. ok? we'll go to the dinerr or something. i don't care. ooh joy i'm so glad i'll see you lot.

i have so many presents to give out, i worry

here's hoping:
no delays
no crashes
no trouble in customs
no trouble with family
no losses
no fear

cheers