so, went out for books and coffee with mr. zachary. he's a nice kid, it's a shame i don't have any motivation to hang out with people ever, because he'd probably be a good person to have round; someone who doesn't need drugs to be happy and who has read more books than i have, but has heard less music, so we can share stuff and teach stuff....

i've been writing rather prolifically, i attribute this to talking to many exes at one time....too shorta period between, i just stay up until about 6 am every night now and stare at the ceiling or read old letters, i wrote a friend about it after reading our complete correspondences for a full year, it was kind of strange to look back on and i think i miss some of my old self, perhaps one day i will tack up that letter because i think it showed some of the growth i've had, especailly compared to the other letters i wrote to the poor guy in the previous year....

new years is soon, and i don't intend to get in trouble again this year, just have a little fun, try to be cool, calm, collected...i doin't know. most of the entries/poems osted are up on wbm now, i wrote them all in the past week but was too lazy to put them up...

my friend andy is a happy lad again, which is lucky, he and the girl were having trouble but theyve decided to take a break to take pressure off....i'm glad. i like talking to him he's a nice kid. hopefully i'll meet some more nice kids