so, this kid i used to know is dead. i can't get over it and i know it's weird, because i haven't spoken with him for probably two years...but a good part of my life (which i don't remember so well)...he figured in. i don't really know what to say. i was in no way associated with him, but there's a sort of hysteria in his death, like he symbolized something...i can't stop laughing. i didn't particularly dislike him, but it's strikingly ridiculous....i don't really know. my reaction must be wrong.