got the worst flu EVER i think, been bedded and sad for days and no signs of improvement...i had a dream that i found a book i really liked and i was halfway through it....and you weren't a jerk, and called me and we had a chat and whatnot....i hate it when such real dreams end, i've been in such delerium lately, difficulty seeing between reality and fantasy...All county is like an awful nightmare i can't wake up from...wednesday night i got sick in the bathroom and stayed there for half an hour....tonight i have a feeling i'm going to faint...if i faint i'll get thrown out, and then getting up today will be in vain. i missed a big writing contest, which is stupid, i shouldn't have, i'm supposedly very good at writing, and i'm sad that i'm so sick this week of all weeks, because i worked so hard to get reccommended for all county and i worked hard to get reccommended for the writing thing...what a waste it's all been.