I'm not really like this, I have put me off so long...
Honesty
2001-06-30
12:25 a.m.

you know what it is time for?...
A

GIGANTIC, MONSTROUS,
FUCK YOU

I'm kind of unsure how to say what I want to, or even if I am justified in saying it. I want to tell ------ that it's not nice to jerk people around and suddenly stop talking to them for no apparent reason whatsoever, just cut them out of your life, ignore them like a stain on the carpet...

I wanted to tell ---- that he doesn't have to make excuses if he's uncomfortable shtooping a girl then say it you fucking...just stop watching porn, stop caring and most of all, stop pretending you care.

I want to tell ---/---- that jerking people around is horrible and wonderful, but mostly horrible in the bad way and i think it's kind of immature of her to have changed all of her stuff to try and remove me from herself, when I am the one who is being the bigger person by not calling the fucking cops on her. (I still know where she lives)

I want to tell ----- that she can you know...say stuff. Just say something you dumb fuck. Literally DUMB. I'm a literary person, and dumb means "unspeaking." Say anything, say a word, say that you have an opinion just quit sleeping on your life!

I want to tell ---- that he should come over later tonight and fuck me until I can't walk.

I wanted to tell -----/----- I am in love with them. I do not know how to, though, it's sort of like my "fuck you." I may as well flip each of those darlings the bird, I would probably get a far better result. They surely couldn't understand the complexity and depths of emotional investment...I have placed into each of them. It's uncalled for, irrational, and would probably "freak them out." Hohum. Such Is Life.

Tis a shame people are so afraid of honesty.

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