2001-07-25
10:40 p.m.
i must confess i was very much disappointed in your failure to worry about my welfare. i told you about the poor boy the compound fracture the big italian man with his body pressed against mine as a challenge, physically threatening and bullying me into submitting to him in one way or another so i gave him the goddamned money and was punished with a sloppy kiss from his deformed, pastrami eating face. I was so glad to climb the stairs today, i wish you had been there to see me crying quietly alone, speaking to myself in murmured french pretending i was vietnamese 10 minutes too late. you weren't there, neither was he. for now, i think i shall settle with you you show enough concern that i can smile, but when he returns to me (my "when" boldly infers that he will indeed return) i will have no more use for you, i use you as a substitute for him. he is infinitely more gorgeous, through and through than you shall ever be with your talk of pussy and hot kisses on either side of salty necks.
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