how can you not feel victimized
when you're forced to lie
and pay attention
when you feel so removed
so betrayed and confused
like a child with chocolate
all over your face

and you know its what you wanted
but is the regret
worth the reward
and is the punishment
worth the victory

it's like chinese water tortue
(womanhood)
every moment your body betrays you
every thought is your mind
betraying you
and you can't escape it
because you're chained
by your existence