and though I meant it when I said it
now I always will regret it
because
I loved you I loved you
but I need a place to hide from youth's brazen but now bruised pride
because I was the fool to think you were not as wonderful as I thought you to be
because clearly I was wrong
clearly I waited far too long
maybe I held back too much
but that's the way I am

I was wasting my time and now I'm fined