I can't shouldn't don't won't
believe what you say
when you're falling down steadying yourself
dropping shots disappearing
drunk

especially when everyone says
I'm a fool
and two dogs of life and obligation at my heels
and the gulf of failure
the precipice I walk to

but those words are the flower my focus
I believe what I want to believe
see what I want to see

I want you unequivocally
and to borrow a turn of phrase
I love you unshakably

3am and trying to keep myself from contacting.