Drinking apple juice
calling it whiskey whiskey
no one knows the real me
and that's fine with me
every day and night
I find I'm slipping slipping
out of my reality
into something easily

all these things we've said
all those things we did
all the things we never wanted

I don't wanna see
I don't wanna feel
anything
anesthetize me
I don't wanna be
sensitive

I don't wanna be here
I don't wanna be
all i want is life
to be like dreaming dreaming
able to avoid myself
unable to hurt myself
all I want right now
is to go quickly quickly
out of my reality
into something pleasantly

everything I do I fake
I smile I dance I take a drink
I spill my guts out on the floor
I smile I dance I drink some more
and on the day I feel nothing
I'll smile and dance and take a drink
I'll really mean it on that day
chin chin the pain has gone away