if she only knew
that something so innocent
was a prelude to the end
then she might not get so upset

when you tell her how
your fingers started traveling down
your tongue ended up in my mouth
and you chose to tell her about it

and not
the nights we sat in silence
watching movies
playing our parts in our heads
the nights you stayed out so late
and caught yourself
but thinking about as you lie in your bed

and when you touch her
and you think about me
do you think she notices
do you think it matters really either way?

6/05