2009-10-01
1:59 a.m.
it's so easy
every time I shut my eyes I can imagine you in your garden singing to yourself + you don't see me because it's like you never knew me at all
I imagine your house
and it's tiny + womb-like
trying to be beautiful
but traditionally tacky + I know it is beautiful in my eyes
I can see yr goat
+ the ocean + the yellow flowers I want you to have huge sunflowers even though you have no seeds (my fault) wearing a snow white hat you don't possess (my fault)
It's like you're dead in a way if you were still here I'd call you...somthing Mama-
I can't say it to yr face I know you know because you came back once but the bridge is burned unless I get on a plane (which I cannot) pack some sunscreen (which I cannot) I want this ache in my stomach to go away I picture your face + my chest hurts +I remember the angriest nights and I can't lie in bed because I feel like only you can comfort me
I loved when you made me spin you'd clap your hands and sing how beautiful I would be how beautiful I could be
So how come you left me? 8/12/04
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