the day after
the second time ever
my eyes wide in terror
I search out for my lover
julian, I whisper
do you remember?

and julian remembers
he says tststs....
as if those two letters
somehow fit together
as if that syllable
is somehow an answer
as if there's a code
that says why you still sit there

it's shame shame shame
but I love you anyway
and don't remind me
of the bad days