sometimes I have these dreams where I travel back in time a la A Christmas Carol and the self of present is screaming at the self of past saying "goddamnit you're so much better than them, don't let it get you down!" and "Don't fall in love with him he's an asshole!" except sometimes my past self can hear me and she's like "what happened to the fact that love doesn't exist?" and I feel like a moron because I was more self aware at 17 than I am at 21. 2/21/07